Here Comes Holy Week

For those that may not be Christians or who may be very conservative Christians, tomorrow is Palm Sunday. Palm Sunday is the beginning of Holy Week. Each of the days represents some main event in the final week of Jesus’ life. For example, Thursday evening is the time churches commemorate the establishment of the Lord’s …

Hunter, Get Me Outta Here!

Yesterday Hunter — my service dog — had his annual exam. Everything came out OK. The vet found a small lump but it turned out to be nothing but a little fatty tissue. I love Hunter and it seems that he loves me. Right now my heart is filled with happy feelings. Hunter is out …

Banging My Head…

I am going to draw out a metaphor with this post; unlike the post just before about the cherry tree. This afternoon a poor, little dark-eyed junco is repeatedly banging itself into one of our windows. Obviously, it must believe that there is something there it wants. Something that will help it cope better during …

Learning From Others

I have spent most of the day learning a lot about blogging. I am such a newbie. I have tons yet to learn. I’ve been learning from two people I have learned to trust and respect and who know A LOT about blogging. If I’m not careful, I could end up doing this full time. …

Has It All Been Worth It?

I have to tell myself that I’m sick and that, because I’m sick, I am depressed. Depression, however, is one of my diagnoses, along with anxiety. It doesn’t crowd into my life just when I am physically ill. I have a mental illness too. I ask myself today: What’s it all been worth? Has my …

Mister, My Mom Fainted

In May 1966 in the middle of beautiful weather and in a beautiful Sacramento neighborhood, I walked up to the ambulance guy and said, “Mister, my mom fainted.” I had just gotten home from school. Getting home was always a dangerous affair. There were various gangs vying for turf in our neighborhood. This was before …

A Bouquet of Roses

In January of 1988 there was a good amount of snow on the ground. The temperatures were hovering around zero. Ft. Madison, Iowa, was pretty much iced in. I was finished. PTSD, anxiety, depression, sadness, a sense of failure were constant companions. I can feel that day as if it were just a brief, few …

The Blue Pelican

Many years ago I enrolled in a masters degree program at Creighton University in Omaha, NE. I was a minister in a medium to large church in Iowa. I was also coming undone. In those days I didn’t know why I was so anxious and depressed. I just knew I was having panic attacks and …